WHAT DOES GOD WANT MOST FROM ME?
Some years it seems like God gives me a theme that I find myself seeking
Him for more than anything else. Last
year, the word I kept hearing in my spirit was:
relationships. Did God change every person that I prayed about? That I don’t know for sure. I can only say I saw a defined change in many
of my relationships that I longed for more closeness in. But I have a feeling that God changed me in the process, and most likely when
I changed and found new freedom in
giving the relationship fully over to Him … the other person probably found it
easier to relate to me in the more intimate way that I had longed for! All I know is that I was amazed and
astounded! Should I have been? Not really … as I had enlisted the help of
the One who longs to give us the desires of our hearts! His Word even says so! And just so you know, I did as much praying
for myself, as I did for the other person/s.
I love how God turns things around and how very evident His work in us
is!
But that was more about what I wanted from God, I’d have to admit.
THIS year, as I seek the face of God, I keep hearing over and over in
the depths of my soul that God wants something from ME! And of all the things He could want, what I
am beginning to understand more fully is that HE JUST WANTS ME TO WANT
HIM! Pure and simple! And yes, as I have sensed God telling me
this, I am also hearing others say the same thing! God could be asking for so many other things,
like: My child, I want your love and
devotion. Your heart and soul. Your time and your talents. Your money and your possessions. Your ideas and your dreams. Your will and your focus. But you know what He is saying? He is telling me that He just wants me to
want HIM!
So God, just how do you want me to live that out? When I ask Him – He lets me know. That is, when I really and truly want to know
“how”! And this year, I am
telling Him that I honestly want to
know!! He is quick to show up … and
He is not the least bit shy about telling me that He wants me to literally WANT
to put Him first in everything I say and in everything I do! Yes, everything, He
emphasizes!!! No more falling prey to the
pressured, deadline things that demand my attention first, but instead … sitting
at the feet of Jesus first!
Every single time! Will
that be difficult ... will that demand a sacrifice on my part? Will that cause me to lose a little extra
sleep in the mornings … and will I WANT HIM so very much – that any
present battles over my flesh will be crucified and I will leap from my list of
demands or foolish waste of precious moments – and into the arms of my Jesus … because
I WANT HIM? Want Him more than
anything else? More than His gifts? More than His protection? More than His provision? Will I just WANT HIM? Will I be so in tune with His Spirit
that I will open up my mouth to total strangers and let His Words come
out? Will I daily and moment-by-moment
make wise, righteous choices that mark my days with His signature love that
continues forward when mine lags behind?
Will I do these things and much more?
The thing is this: no matter how
much we think we HAVE to do to prove to Him that we really WANT HIM more than anything
else in our lives, will cause us to come up short and make us feel like we’ve
failed Him! But, when we just simply and
purely WANT OUR LORD & SAVIOR,
all of the marks that define a yielded child of God will show forth as reality
in our lives! All of the fruit that we
are to live out will grow and mature as a result of just wanting Him! Yes!
Will we fail? Will we
think of giving up? Settling for less of
Him and more of us? No, a thousand times
NO! We must want more than ever to
follow HARD after our God and to have an UNDIVIDED HEART before Him! When we SEE Him … He will be seen through us! When we FOLLOW Him … He will go before
us! When we PURSUE Him … He lets us
catch Him! When things get tough and we
HIDE OURSELVES in Him … He smooths our way and we find ourselves in Him! Come to think of it, this is the ultimate
relationship we could ever want! So
what are we waiting for? If our walk
with God is to survive in this present and evil world, then the only logical
conclusion tied to our faith in God … is that we must understand that He only
wants us to want HIM! Living our
life just wanting God will cause the doors of His Kingdom to fling open in ways
we’ve only before dreamed of! Our
connection to others will flow naturally and we will find ourselves being used
for God’s glory in ways beyond our wildest imaginations! Even so, Lord Jesus, I want YOU! YOU.
YOU! Always and only YOU! For Your honor and glory!
REMEMBER . . .
“My whole
being follows hard after You and clings closely to You; Your right hand upholds
me.”
~ Psalm 63:8
~ Psalm 63:8
“ … direct
and unite my heart (solely, reverently) to fear and honor Your Name.”
~ Psalm 86:11
~ Psalm 86:11
Joyfully Serving Christ . . .
Pastor Doug and Debbie